Sometimes when I say the last amen of the Rosary prayer I feel I'm at one with God & the universe. It started in my early days of praying this repetitious prayer when I used a small software application on my home computer that I downloaded for free after a google search. Its amazing the doors that Google unlocks for you...
The application had you hit the amen button as you got to the end of the Rosary and it would take you to the next prayer. When I hit the final amen of the concluding prayer the entire application would disappear, leaving me with my simple PC desktop. The suddenness of that act would transport me to a place where I immediately felt the peace of God and the curious sense of being wonderfully in touch with his presence. I would feel a deep sense of well being and that I was in touch with the entire universe, at one with it, and with its creator.
The feeling often pervades my senses even when I haphazardly pray the Rosary at work in my casino on a dead game where I'd have plenty of time to muddle through what I could remember of the mysteries of that particular day. I'd be standing there at the prayer's conclusion feeling my invisible senses expanding out to the entire universe.
All this sounds grand and wonderfully full of mystery but its always quite subtle and often missed as the profane concerns of my work day would block me from contact with the invisible world. But on occasion, I'd be wrapped in the mystery and sublime beauty of prayer, in touch with my spirit and all of creation.
What this all means in the long run of my stumbling, sinful life I'm not quite sure, but I'm grateful that a little bit of heaven can pervade my earthly life by praying the simple, repetitious Rosary.
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3 comments:
I like your thoughts today. I have to tell you that lately I've been trying to bring the mystery, or "touching eternity" as you call it to the present here and now in my own life. I'm trying to make prayer into a conscious effort throughout my day. I've started with having the alarm on my cell set several times in the day to alarm and just remind me to pray. If I have time for nothing else, I'll say the Lord's Prayer. It really has had a peaceful, calming effect on my life. Dallas Willard discusses this idea in his book, "Divine Conspiracy", which is a very long, but beautiful read that I highly recommend. He calls it the "Kingdom" and as scripture says, the Kingdom IS at hand! It is there right next to us and is ready to interject itself at our calling. How beautiful to think that God will not push himself on us, but is yearning to be intermingled in our everyday life!
I am in sin with you, Frankie...although not in Vegas and not in gambling. I just sin...and sin...and sin. I pray...but it's a tough love. Dr.Dave
Dave,
Besetting sins can be quite distressing and distracting...
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